i just happened to glance at a 2001 calendar and was suddenly overwhelmed by the feeling of the speed at which the seconds, the hours, the days and the months and the years are whizzing by. chotto matte!
next year 2002 will be my final year in London, and soon i’ll be graduating and starting to teach.. then i realised the more we are attached to this present world and because we’re so familiar with the way things are in this reality, the more we want time to stop, and are afraid of the future.
why should i feel afraid of heaven? isn’t it a sure reality to me? i’ve been singing all about it and yes i do have bouts of euphoria when i think of how wonderful it will be – no more pain, no more sadness, no more suffering, no more tears. but maybe, just maybe, i’m too used to the broken state of this world, and i’m not quite so ready – emotionally & maybe spiritually – for a perfect world yet. it’s just like how i’m now having cramps, and ning was asking me to take panadol, and part of me was refusing to take it, cos i just want to curl up and suffer under the blanket. :( and i realised why it’s so important to be in corporate worship and to be more acquainted with the reality of heaven. the more familiar we are with our sure future, the more we will be ready to leave this world. amen. come Lord Jesus.
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