i realise more than before that the different purposes of each of us is in line with the different outlooks and passions that each of us has.. kia meng has a passion to see Your glory being revealed and upheld.. my passion is more for helping people in need.. each has his own function and service in the kingdom of God.. i thank You that You don’t leave pple out of Your service.. no one is forgotten!
Lord, pls teach me to look to you even through eyes that see pain and suffering in a more real way.. i haven’t understood what it means to be physically and materially poor.. reading about Janice’s mission trip to Philippines and her experience in the slum areas, all the kids scavenging for food.. i dunno if my heart cries out to them especially.. or if it’s a general emotion of empathy.. i think there’s a tension between desiring to be able to lift them out of the misery, and knowing that You are more than sufficient for them.. Lord, increase my faith and Janice’s team’s faith to see that when they bring the good news of Jesus to them, there’s no need to feel ashamed of the gospel, thinking that there’s no reality, or no comfort that You can bring, becos of the extent and depth of their poverty.. but all the more blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven! blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.. yet there’s also a need to connect with them and be amongst them, to share in their turmoils and fears, so that in bringing the gospel, we are better able to reach the pits they are in, and touch on homebase, not from a distance..
as i’ve also juz read of the eastern lightning cult in china, pls forgive me as i realise my inadequacy to acknowledge Your sovereignty immediately when i see the evil work of the devil.. he is SOO evil!! i think there’s nothing else on earth more evil than satan for he is the true antithesis of goodness.. i was thinking, while man is sinful, and not acknowledging your presence.. i think active opposition to You is more evil than indifference.. correct me if i’m wrong Lord, but that’s how i feel, and i thank You for the righteous anger You’ve put in my heart that cries out against the atrocities of the cult in making Your elect fall..
God reign Lord.. You are Lord, You are Sovereign.. pls let us see Your glory even now!! Lord pls teach me to pray effectively against the evil one’s plans.. i want to be a prayer warrior for You even though at times my flesh is weak.. i want to learn how to complete whatever i start doing – all the books i’ve begun to read, all the notes i want to finish writing.. help me Lord i pray!
Lord pls teach me not to do anything out of selfish ambition and vain conceit.. that as i desire to do something good, let me know that the seed is rotten if it comes from my sinful self.. but the seed will take root and bear fruit that will last if it’s from You.. let me not think that as i sow any seed, not acknowledging that it could be a rotten one from me, that it doesn’t really make a difference, cos in the end, it’s good anyway that i’m sowing seeds, and who knows, You may make them grow… but let me understand that if i sow seeds which are rotten, they affect the growth of the true good seeds, and could grow into weeds to choke the good ones.. let me not take what i give lightly, or flippantly, always searching my heart for right desires before You.. thank You Lord.. amen..
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