i’ve just had a most interesting talk with O, for myself at least.. just want to thank You Lord for growing her faith and bringing her through all trials and circumstances which help her consolidate her thoughts and faith and which make the gap between her and her non-christian friends more apparent… the fact that she never quite enjoyed the things they did really shows that she has been Yours all along and You have made her for Yourself to be fulfilled in You.
Lord pls pls bring her to the stage where she truly finds her satisfaction and joy in reaching Your heart. “when i’ve found the joy of reaching Your heart, when my will becomes enthralled in Your love, when all things that surround become shadows in the light of You”. thank You Lord for what You’re doing and will be doing in her life. pls keep her close to You always, regardless of the situations… thank You for using her tonite to speak to me…
she encouraged me to not be afraid to take on a leadership role in future, where my intellect which You’ve given me can be put into use… can’t rem if she was referring to my teaching job, or to church… but she analysed for me that one of my problems is that i’m non-committal..
i don’t like bearing responsibility for the advice i give…
and how she sees that if i’m confident of the way i live my life according to Your will, why can’t i be more confident in the advice i give other pple to lead their lives? God pls help strengthen my faith in You. that indeed what You do for me can be extended to other pple. pls give me the discernment and the boldness to speak Your words of truth in encouragement and exhortation, that truly a change will take place in their lives, spiritually…
she said that if i’m so confident and pro-active in my own life – knowing that the way i seek You is right (and yet actually i need to keep reminding myself that i’m a branch, You are the vine: i’m utterly dependant on You by nature of that relationship, not on anything else: having confidence only in the fact that i’m a branch attached to the vine, not having confidence in my branch state alone, nor having confidence in the method by which i receive food) this confidence if taken to another step can be used in guiding less astute Christians in Your way…
Lord, if that’s what You want for my life, pls fulfil it. pls give me a God-centred confidence and availability to take responsibilities for my advice and direction – indeed,
“everyone who has, more will be given, but as for the one who has nothing, even what he has will be taken away.”
Lord, let me use the talents You’ve given me wisely: the heart of giving, listening, any leadership skills, Lord pls hone them and develop them the way You want, not the way the world wants and Lord pls guide me in knowing how to use them effectively for You, bearing fruit that will last, not using them in a temporal way which bears no real spiritual lasting significance! teach me not to fear bearing responsibility. teach me not to fear the opinions of men and whether or not they approve of my advice, i just need to have Your approval… thank You Lord.
another thing to add is that O believes the passion You’ve given me to live a holy and pleasing life is quite rare (i don’t really think so, but it’s quite true that there are definitely fewer committed Christians compared to sunday church-goers) and it would be a waste of the “talent” if i were in a “supporting” role – which she sees as making coffee or tea.. hee – than in a leadership role where vision and decision-making skills are required… hmm… dunno what You have in store, but i’m praying now that Lord, as i thank You for answering my previous prayers with regards to kia meng and loads of other things, pls answer this prayer for guidance! constantly! thank You… :)
i learnt that prayer and praise are the two wings of a plane that require it to go straight, so i’ll praise You now in advance for the things yet unseen but which have its roots in the heavenly places… amen!
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