This is a day i want to remember.. and it’s not over yet and i don’t know what You have in store for me Jesus for the next 4 hours left of this day..
at Kensington temple, there was a message on 2002 being the year of the Lord’s favour.. for those who willingly hold on to the promise.. Lord that’s what i want.. to be blessed in my relationships, my studies, my spiritual growth.. my family situation.. everything that i’ve been praying for Lord, may fruit bear forth this year!! for my friends – p, ro, yin, yx, hm – to come to know You.. for my family relations to be healed.. perhaps, finding companionship and love with a boyfriend** you’re preparing for me, and preparing me for.. help in understanding my solid state physics and general relativity… for breakthrough with perseverance – with regards to how i feel like all my plans and hopes never result in fruition; what i plan to do, i never start on or never finish – reading books (tons of them on my shelf now!), wanting to set aside that time in the night to spend with you, a deeper quiet time, writing out sermons nicely in my book, setting time for personal retreat.. etc.. Lord please help me achieve all these things and more cos You’re taking me to a higher level and a deeper level!! but also help me know which are my own desires and which are Yours.. that i may know which have greater priority!
remember the gist of what pastor Michael said today:
it’s amazing how you bring pple together and put burdens on pple’s hearts to pray for others and arrange meetings to encourage them in words and action.. i’ve been one such encouraged.. by regina malicdem, whom i met at such a chance meeting during one of the pilot light meetings at westminster chapel, and whom i realised is a Filipino so i went back to look for her in the toilet after i said bye, cos i remembered a Filipino leaving a message on our ocf online notice board at community zero, asking for any news of a Filipino church or fellowship group..
so i went back, and got talking to regina, and we exchanged details.. that led to today’s meeting with her.. originally, i thought it was just a lunch meeting, and i was asking You Lord, if it was going to be a significant meeting, and I was asking You why she wanted to meet up.. and man, God, You really amaze me.. i’ve been so blessed by her!! we decided to go to visit Kensington temple and she shared a lot with me on the way there.. i was encouraged by what she said that she felt burdened to pray for me, and it’s not everybody that she feels this kind of feeling of being drawn towards to share with..
she felt i was being groomed to be a leader for You Lord.. wow.. i mean even now, i’m still struggling with knowing what to do with the prayer ministry..and knowing that i really need to get down on my knees and fast and seek You on direction.. i’ve been struggling for the past few weeks over setting side time to spend with You Lord.. in the quiet secret place.. and that’s the first thing she was talking about.. that it’s so wonderful and important to seek You in that quiet secret place.. thank You Lord for encouraging me.. yes that’s what i want to do.. and i’ll keep asking You to help me accomplish that.. some other things that she said which were applicable to what i’m facing now is with regards to waiting and not being impatient with knowing what the future holds.. cos You know what’s in the future, but we don’t.. and i want to surrender both my calling and future spouse to Your leading..
regina said there are 365 promises in the Bible with “do not fear”/ “do not be afraid”.. and that really spoke to me.. this whole thing about the leader thing has also made me think about how it will be like in s’pore when i’m in the ministry of education.. i mean if you want me to be in a leadership position, will i be willing to avail myself? all along, i’ve been feeling that i just want to teach for all 6 years.. and that seems like a comfortable thought, in a way, within the comfort zone, communicating with students, rather than other adults (i dread the back-stabbing etc) but Lord if you have blessed me so much with talent, and favour in the eyes of the government, why don’t i seize the chance and use the place where You’re going to put me for Your greater glory? Lord, pls help me surrender that part to You as well… remember what regina said:
Lord give me eyes to see and ears to hear, or i will miss out… the Holy Spirit is so precious and comes and goes as a gentle dove..
Lord help me to be sensitive so i know what words i can say in season and out of season to pple you bring along my way.. just as how regina truly has a life abundantly flowing with Your Spirit of joy and love..
at Kensington temple, there was a message on 2002 being the year of the Lord’s favour.. for those who willingly hold on to the promise.. Lord that’s what i want.. to be blessed in my relationships, my studies, my spiritual growth.. my family situation.. everything that i’ve been praying for Lord, may fruit bear forth this year!! for my friends – p, ro, yin, yx, hm – to come to know You.. for my family relations to be healed.. perhaps, finding companionship and love with a boyfriend** you’re preparing for me, and preparing me for.. help in understanding my solid state physics and general relativity… for breakthrough with perseverance – with regards to how i feel like all my plans and hopes never result in fruition; what i plan to do, i never start on or never finish – reading books (tons of them on my shelf now!), wanting to set aside that time in the night to spend with you, a deeper quiet time, writing out sermons nicely in my book, setting time for personal retreat.. etc.. Lord please help me achieve all these things and more cos You’re taking me to a higher level and a deeper level!! but also help me know which are my own desires and which are Yours.. that i may know which have greater priority!
remember the gist of what pastor Michael said today:
no river runs as far as the depth it carries..
the Christian has to be deeply rooted in the Word and Spirit before he can be carried far in the Spirit.. teach me depth through intimacy with You and deep heart-felt prayer..
(** post-script: for the record, on this very same day 6th Jan 2002, I had dinner with km which then led to the awkward conversation that started our relationship. Lord, You really have impeccable timing!)
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