was chatting awhile with melvin before prayer group started and he was sharing about his friend who was so fervent for Christ before but has backslided to a stage of turning his back on God... sounds common? melvin commented that he couldn't really blame his friend, and thinking of what he had gone through, melvin also wondered if he would have done the same..
i began to think of the reason for believing in Christ.. i don't blame skeptics like hm for passing off christianity as a psychological pillow for weak people who need a God.. sometimes i really feel that our reason for believing is so that there is a reason to believe in something.. but i know there's so much more to just clinging on to a faint notion of a higher being who can help us in our every need and who loves us..
Oh Lord.. forgive our short-sightedness.. i do cherish the strong methodist tradition of expounding on Your faithful LOVE.. but sometimes it may have softened us to such an extent we find it hard to accept suffering from You and ironically pushes some to doubt the claims of Your love in the Bible.. if we would see both a loving and GLORIOUS God.. we wouldn't dare lift up our fist at You.. thank You for kia meng who since last year has impacted my thinking of seeing a balance of a loving and an awe-inspiring sovereign God..
i want to believe in You Lord because i understand truly my place as a created creature, before a majestic BIG God.. and yet i also want to believe in You Lord because i can understand Your love for Your creatures that overflow from the Trinity.. Lord i dare not say that i'll never ever fall away amidst devastating circumstances, but i can only pray Lord that Your grace sustains me.. and on my part, i'll keep my responsibility to remain a humble servant..
help us learn from Job, who said "naked i came from my mother's womb, and naked i will depart.. the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised"... wow.. can i say such a thing if Lord You take away all You have given me? my loved ones (my mom) my involvement in church, my brain, my looks..
but i need feel Your love to soften me, and i need to see Your glory to toughen me.. thank You for both..
Oh Lord.. forgive our short-sightedness.. i do cherish the strong methodist tradition of expounding on Your faithful LOVE.. but sometimes it may have softened us to such an extent we find it hard to accept suffering from You and ironically pushes some to doubt the claims of Your love in the Bible.. if we would see both a loving and GLORIOUS God.. we wouldn't dare lift up our fist at You.. thank You for kia meng who since last year has impacted my thinking of seeing a balance of a loving and an awe-inspiring sovereign God..
i want to believe in You Lord because i understand truly my place as a created creature, before a majestic BIG God.. and yet i also want to believe in You Lord because i can understand Your love for Your creatures that overflow from the Trinity.. Lord i dare not say that i'll never ever fall away amidst devastating circumstances, but i can only pray Lord that Your grace sustains me.. and on my part, i'll keep my responsibility to remain a humble servant..
help us learn from Job, who said "naked i came from my mother's womb, and naked i will depart.. the Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised"... wow.. can i say such a thing if Lord You take away all You have given me? my loved ones (my mom) my involvement in church, my brain, my looks..
but i need feel Your love to soften me, and i need to see Your glory to toughen me.. thank You for both..
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