Nostalgia beckons as i look through past blogs:
the heart longs again.. why does the past haunt? not that there was anything to begin with.. oh Lord i pray you will deliver me from the distraction that keeps coming back..
the past year has passed without any feelings of being alone, perhaps the work at school had to do with it.. but Lord, didn't i ask you to be all that i need? yet i know you provide human love for us to experience on earth a shadow of the perfect love you have for us..
24 this year.. it may not be so easy this time.. i need Your grace Lord..
oh that i can be like david in psalm 63:
O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
posted by 5ive.loaves at 1:59 AM
a year on.. and i still am single.. not ashamedly, but neither self-sufficiently either... mixed feelings of fear and longing but no one in sight, or perhaps none within "reach".. yet Lord i know Your plans and timing are perfect.. sometimes it's just hard to believe or accept what i know.
i still go back now and then to his blog to see how he's doing, but yet my heart tells me i should pray for the one who is in singapore now instead.. but nothing is happening, and i can only pray Lord that You will orchestrate something this year if it is Your will.. but let me be all that You want me to be, not lacking anything emotionally/ spiritually, so that when he comes along, it will be a union of two strong souls and not a leeching of one on the other
as rachel + partner, clara + jeffrey, eunice + aaron, janice + carlsen, teresa + partner are all confirmed getting married within these two years, and many others for whom it's a matter of time, i pray Lord You will guard my heart.. from feeling incomplete, from feeling lacking.. for all i need is You and You will provide.. surely.
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