because my heart will show fear 4 no man
but 4 a broken heart I run with fright
scared 2 be blind in a vulnerable night
I believe this fear is in every man
some will acknowledge it others will fail 2 understand
there is no fear in a shallow heart
because shallow hearts don't fall apart
but feeling hearts that truly care are fragile 2 the flow of air
and if I am 2 be true then I must give
my fragile heart
I may receive great joy or u may return it
ripped apart
--- Tupac Shakur
this is a poem a friend shared with us from her other friend's website. oh the fear of feeling and caring too much! perhaps You know that of me, and have kept me single all this while in order to deal with this fundamental fear before i can commit to opening my heart to anyone. this selfish fear of being hurt.. or perhaps i have become too comfortable with being enclosed and too inertified to share my life.. i'm so used to talking to myself and You that it's too tiring to communicate with other humans! heheh.. that's why i find it a chore to write letters/ keep up with email/ send cards/ call up friends. i'm fine with smsing - it's less of a commitment - short, skims on the peripheral greetings yet appeases my guilt for neglecting contacting that person. ah my shallow heart..
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