I seem to have 2 kinds of motivations that God wants to deal with:
1) being responsible/ dutiful, meeting expectations of getting things done
2) approval of man and recognition for being competent, skilful, effective, outstanding, having quality
God is wanting me to learn to
This influences my time with Him as well as how I approach friendships. Currently, many of my meet ups are with friends with a helping dynamic.. Being a listening ear, emotional support, prayer support and encourager.. But recent interactions with S, J, SW have helped me be aware that my human capacity to give and be patient is limited.. And I get frustrated easily when the other person is just taking and it is one sided.. Or if the person doesn't seem to appreciate or take the advice given.. My "effectiveness" as a helper and mentor then becomes compromised and my true motivation that is self-serving is revealed. God wants me to operate from a place of loving union with Christ, that such love overflows and knows the boundaries that we should have to remain emotionally healthy.
This includes why I spend time with God and how much time I choose to do so.. This is linked to the previous point as well.. If time with God is treated as a duty, it will be more to gain knowledge or a sense of spirituality.. It will be transactional in order to gain rewards that I then transact with people to gain their approval.. But what I need to first and foremost look for is God saying well done good and faithful servant.
Father pls remove this transactional self-serving heart of stone and replace it with a heart of flesh that is living and loving. 💗
2) approval of man and recognition for being competent, skilful, effective, outstanding, having quality
God is wanting me to learn to
operate from a place of desire not duty
This influences my time with Him as well as how I approach friendships. Currently, many of my meet ups are with friends with a helping dynamic.. Being a listening ear, emotional support, prayer support and encourager.. But recent interactions with S, J, SW have helped me be aware that my human capacity to give and be patient is limited.. And I get frustrated easily when the other person is just taking and it is one sided.. Or if the person doesn't seem to appreciate or take the advice given.. My "effectiveness" as a helper and mentor then becomes compromised and my true motivation that is self-serving is revealed. God wants me to operate from a place of loving union with Christ, that such love overflows and knows the boundaries that we should have to remain emotionally healthy.
seek only the approval from the audience of One
This includes why I spend time with God and how much time I choose to do so.. This is linked to the previous point as well.. If time with God is treated as a duty, it will be more to gain knowledge or a sense of spirituality.. It will be transactional in order to gain rewards that I then transact with people to gain their approval.. But what I need to first and foremost look for is God saying well done good and faithful servant.
Father pls remove this transactional self-serving heart of stone and replace it with a heart of flesh that is living and loving. 💗
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